I jump around A LOT

I seem to have a problem, and on the surface it just seems like I can't make up my mind, or I'm just a little "flighty" or "preoccupied" but really its a more serious issue when I sit down and think about it. February 21st (or around there) will mark my first day of school. ((AGAIN)) As some of you have notice, and believe me I'VE noticed.. I jump around a lot, I went out to college, did a few semesters, got married, went to dental assisting school- finished that, decided I hated it. Move to NY enrolled in a local community college paralegal program, decided that although I like that stuff, I'd rather go to beauty school... started that, love it, realized the program was in one word GHETTO, and quit. Jarom seems to think I can't focus, and maybe he's right, but I'm so sick of not finishing things! It really takes a toll on you... I mean sometimes I feel so worthless, and air headed, it just drives me down... but not anymore. I WILL finish my degree, it may take a while, but I will. I think part of the reason I have been so "down" lately.. I don't want to use the word depressed, because I simply don't believe I am (although every time I go to the Doctor she seems to want to prescribe me 10 different pills-- crazy lady, I guess) I just think it was because I wasn't getting the fulfillment out of life that I know I need. Knowledge is the only thing we can take with us from this life, and I think when we aren't pushing ourselves to be the best or the smartest we can be, we get discouraged.. at least I do. So BYUI (online) here I come, I now you will be hard, I know I will have to try, but I know it will be worth it.